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May. 23rd, 2005 @ 03:24 pm Watch your back...
Current Mood: busy
Current Music: "Private Eyes" Hall & Oates
I think I'm considering a change in career. Jessica Cook, Private Investigator sounds far more fitting for me these days...
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May. 20th, 2005 @ 11:38 pm I guess there is always welfare?!?!?
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: "Do you realize" The Flaming Lips
I was an emotional girl of the worst kind today. I probabaly cried a total of 4 hours which is unprecedented. I'm exaggerating a bit but if I do my math correctly, I cried from approximately 6AM to 8AM then 1030AM to 1230PM. I managed to pull myself together for my brief stint at practicum but the doc knew something was up. I then proceeded to spill my guts, as is usually the case, and cry to this poor man for a half hour. Seriously, he thinks the highschoolers are bad...try dealing with an overtired grad student, recovering from the flu, still PMSing, who just got in a rip roaring battle with the rents. That was me this morning and goddamn it was UGLY.

Really now, there is nothing I enjoy more than waking to the sound of my fathers footsteps pounding up the stairs followed by him shoving a piece of paper in my face. What is this piece of paper you may be asking. Well, my friends, it was my bank statement. Does the man really need to remind me of how poor I am, honestly, is it necessary? 20 minute verbal attack as I'm rolling out of bed, neccessary? Not so much. As if I'm not upset enough about evereything else going on, this just TOPPED it all. I don't need to be reminded that:
A. I'm poor
B. I'm still living at home
C. I owe a bajillion dollars
D. I'll never be making a doctors salary
E. I'm an unemployed loser
F. I spend too much on coffee, clothes (like hey nice to meet you, I'm your AVERAGE 20 something female!!)
As I stated in my previous journal, I take FULL OWNERSHIP of my vices!!! So the rest of the morning was a blur; crying in the shower, crying over breakfast, crying while listeneing to an otherwise fabulous ibop mix. My morning was like the typical antidepressant ad/commercial with one tiny problem. I'm not depressed!!!(Or at least I dont think I am) To complete this stellar morning, big EL adds her two cents as I'm leaving the house. I will not even go into the details of that fight because I'm still terribly insulted, which as you know, takes alot. Anyhow long story short, its 11:20 and my eyes are still puffy(insert sad face).

If any of you plan to stay friends with me, one simple rule. Avoid any/all discussion of financial matters. Want to chat OC?? FABULOUS!! Want an in depth discussion of denim on denim?? SURE THING!!! Want to talk about food?? EXCELLENT. JUST NO MONEY TALK!!! No job talk too if thats possible. Lets keep theconversations as substance free as possible!
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May. 17th, 2005 @ 03:13 pm Its the little things...
Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: "I Think We're Alone Now" Tiffany
So I had the most fabulous saturday. I went to the beach, I did some shopping, took in a movie. I was relaxed. I was happy. I was with some of my favorite people. This psuedo adventure made me realize how much I miss Saturdays and thus justifies my decision to quit Filene's last week. I miss out on too many little things! I miss out on trips to the beach! I miss out on eavesdropping on highschoolers post prom! I miss out on blaring tiffany through the center of town! It the ridiculous little things of this nature that really make me happy. Who cares if I'm jobless and dead broke, at least I'll have some fabulous memories with the BEST of company(topped you all!!). So in my usual fashion, here is list of the little things that make my day (some of you may be included directly or indirectly)

-I love that bag and I can leave each other 12 messages a week and never run out of things to talk about...
-I love that I get excited everytime I get a "hello" IM from julie margaret
-I love that I can now live the college life vicariously through nate michael
-I love how katie, goobie, and I can still find the value in a trip to the beach on a cold windy day...
-I love how a cookie cake can really make your birthday complete...
-I love how I still get excited when a new boy calls...
-I love when my father or mother fill my gas tank just because...
-I love that my best friend is a "hop, skip and a jump away", figurtively speaking...
-I love how a trip to java hut really completes the week...
-I love that I have friends who just know when someone needs a build a bear...
-I love how I'm so entertained by highschoolers in love...
-I love that I can look forward to memorial day festivities with my favorites; bag, kevin, julie margaret, diane...
-I love my deep AIM chats with the likes of Katie Kate, Nate Michael, Goobie, Turi...
-I love that I make ibop playlists for every possible mood/emotion/day of the week/holiday...
-I love how a run at the reservoir will clear my mind of everything...
-I love sitting in my bed for 7 hours watching growing up gotti or any other ridiculous/substance free reality show...
-I love that I am always welcome to watch the OC at 11 amherst ave...
-I love that I can now wear flip flops all the time and its totally acceptable...
-I love that I can look forward to a summer visit form dear scotey and perhaps towmas and crew...
-I love that I chuckle every time I see the I HEART journey pin in my car or hear some michael mcdonald on the ibop...
-I love that I cannot wait for the new Hillary Duff movie to come out this summer(BOPPER FOR LIFE)
-I love the sunny weather which equates to more time for walks, frisbee, exploring, seeing cute puppies on northampton street, star gazing, drinks outside...

All in all, its the little things that you kiddos do that make my day, whether you know it or not. I might not call, email, or hang out as much as I would like to but you all are always on my mind!! I look forward to a fun filled summer with weekends off, with at least one dedicated to each of you!!!
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May. 10th, 2005 @ 10:21 pm I'm talking with the man in the mirror...
Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: "Pink Bullets" The Shins
I suffer from this problem where I often talk to myself while driving. Some days the radio or my ipod just bore me to death so I vent, to myself. It make perfect sense, however, my fellow drivers may do a double take.
So today on my way home from AIC, after a frantic morning throwing together my final project and final exam for stats, I had a deep chat. This chat was more of a reflection of the morning events. After some psuedo-conversation I realized how mad I was with myself for waiting until the last minute to complete all of the work I owe. I then got to thinking about my many vices and whether I am ready to make a commitment to change. Perhaps once I get my life straightened out I will make a concious effort to work towards a better cookie. In the meantime I decided to make a list of these vices and actively think of ways to change them. If anyone has any suggestions, I welcome them with open arms(journey what what).

My Vices:(In no particular order)
I jump to conclusions to quickly
I'm indecisive
I suffer from a mild case of procrastination
I'm mentally retarded in the field of organization
I'm a regular victim of retail therapy
I run without socks on
I forget to do things
I complain about my job on a regular basis
I take my anger out on poor El
I'm addicted to caffine
I make fun of people I dont even know
I'm insensitive to the ld, the culturally diverse...
I'm addicted to ridiculous tv shows
I never vaccuum my car but I always think about how great an idea it is
I don't make my bed everyday
I depend on IM as a major means of communication
I sometimes think I'm still in college
I still don't know left from right
My handwriting is about on par with a 3rd grader
I'm a sucker for convenience
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May. 8th, 2005 @ 08:13 pm Guess who's back?
Current Mood: content
Current Music: "Clarity" John Mayer
I am back after almost a month hiatus, and goddamn it feels goood. Life has been crazy lately. Somedays I feel like I'm in 5 places at once, figurtively. But alas there is a light at the end of the tunnel; classes will be done Wenesday; Filene's will be getting my two week notice; The school year is almost done. Life is good! Throughout the stress and chaos post wedding, I had a number of epihpanies which I decided to share with my favorite live journal readers (all six of you!!!):

No matter how busy you are, there is always time for friends
You can learn a lot from a kindergartner
A roomful of 27 crying highschoolers will put things in perspective
Weddings make you temporarily in love with the idea of being in love
Latino night is not just for Latino's...
Sometimes you really need a break from the 413
No matter how stressed you are, things will get done, they always get done
You don't realize how much you miss someone until you are reunited (BAG!!!)
Its totally cool to hang out at barnes and noble
Preparing a presentataion on the treatment of eating disorders can, coincidntally, make you quite hungry...
Landon, from the real world philly, may be the biggest douchebag in the free world...
It is possible to get accidentally wasted...
Life is more exciting when you don't know the path...
Don't worry about the weather, Spring likes to take catnaps...
Some kids like to be in SPED classes bc they are fat, lazy and smelly...
Working at Filene's may cause you to engage in racial profiling concerning possible purchases(i.e Russian's love to buy the fuzzy collared sweaters)

Well that is it for now. You all can look forward to regular upadtes after Wednesday!! Try not to pee yourself!
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Apr. 12th, 2005 @ 10:48 pm You put the lime in the coconut...
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: "Good Vibrations" The Beach Boys
So I'll be leaving for the VI in less than 36 hours which seems somewhat surreal. When my brother initially mentioned a wedding in the VI about a year ago it just seemed so far away. Even in Januray and February the wedding seemed ions away. Reality, however, kicked my ass when I had to spend 200$ on a dress and accessories, 500$ on a plane ticket and another 300$ on a bachelorette party and shower. Well after months of my bitching it is finally here and the excitement factor has finally kicked in. I'm looking forward to swimming in crystal clear water, basking in the 85 degree weather, snorkeling amongst the fab underwater creatures, horseback riding on the beaches and spending a week on a beautiful island with some of my favorite people in the whole world. I will be sure to document the entire trip via digicam, whether its myself and Kate indulging in too many margaritas, or leona living it up, or billy the mullet, well just being billy the mullet(hopefully I can get the pics on here bc you all know my love of online photo albums). I hope to come back with some entertaining stories and amazing memories as well. So as The Doc said "get loaded, get a tan, come back not feeling rested because you've had so much fun" or as the asian lady who did my nails today said "get crunked"?!?!?(I'm not really sure what that entails but I'm sure it will happen) I will miss all of you dearly and if you have any requests for souvenirs, I'll sure take them, otherwise its magnet city for all of you!!

PS I'll be sure to have at least one delicious island drink for all of you. Cheers to that!!!
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Apr. 9th, 2005 @ 01:11 am Not only am I the president, but I'm also a member...
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: "I Got Id" Pearl Jam
So here I am sitting in front of my laptop on yet another friday nite. I had full intentions of going out for a quick drink but:
A: My phone has mysteriously lost all of its numbers. Like wtf, I really CANNOT touch any sort of object that has some technological component bc it will surely be broken within moments. There goes my social life, oh wait...
B: I have no money for gas bc my paycheck was a whopping 58$$$$ Just call me DaddyWarbucks, seriously...
C: Where does one get gas at 1230?
D: I work for a wretched company by the name of Filene's, who insists on staying open until 12?!?! If you haven't found an outfit for the club by this point, just give up. That G Unit shirt just isn't that cute
E: Why go out and engage in stimulating conversation when you can spend quality time with a dear friend by the name of ipod...
F: I've seen way too many depressed teens this week. I'm starting to truly understend the idea of psychosomatic effects...
G: I'm still adjusting to the change in clocks. This is a first for me and its trippy. I have no real problem with the fact that I'm wide awake at 1, however, this does become an issue when I have to be up by 6 4 days of the week and generally have 14 hour days...
H: I taped the OC last nite and, therefore, have LOTS to catch up on(Ryan and Marissa, together forever??? Ryan's bad news bro??)
Well I'm just gonna sit here and marinate in my uncoolness for the rest of the nite. Perhaps I'll even continue the flow (or would it be lack of??) tomorrow. I'm secretly hoping a mini marathon of powergirls will be on tommorrow nite. I'll keep my fingers crossed until then.
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Apr. 8th, 2005 @ 06:46 am Smart Cookie...
Current Mood: curious
Current Music: "On Your Porch" The Format
F is for Friday...
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Apr. 7th, 2005 @ 07:10 am Bermuda, Bahama...
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: "Through the Wire" Kanye West
This time next week I will be on a plane to St. Croix where it is currently 78 degrees...EXCELLENT...
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Apr. 5th, 2005 @ 08:35 pm I like cheese...Yaaaaaaaaaayyyyy...
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: "I Would Die For You" prince
So this more or less sums up my life at practicum these days...

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/spacepeople.shtm
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Apr. 4th, 2005 @ 10:36 pm Hey its me...Tokyo...
Current Mood: curious
Current Music: "Waiting on a Friend" The Rolling Stones
So this is ridiculous...I saw one word in the headline of this quiz and that was it(any guesses as to what it was, wink). I just have this unhealthy gravitation toward the Asian persuasion...



You are "Excited"

John Kerry





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Apr. 3rd, 2005 @ 10:10 pm I'm jcool, nice to meet you...
Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: "Title & Registration" Death Cab For Cutie
I'm soo sorry to all of my regular journal readers as I've been MIA for almost a week and a half. My sincerest apologies. My life has not been very exciting, in fact, I've been spending an unprecedented amount of time doing work. Such is life I spose. I'm just gonna provide you with some highlights from the last two weeks:
1. My favorite bag in the whole world turned 24!!! I'm sure she lived it up all weekend bc that is what she does best. She puts the fab in fabulous!! YOLO/Stars and stripes forveer!!
2. I finally bit the bullet and bought a laptop and seriously my life will never be the same. I'm currently stealing highspeed from my neighbors which is also AWESOME but kinda illegal...
3. The Cookie family are now the proud parents of a geo metro?!?! You've got that right a geo metro. If you're lucky enough you may get a glimpse of Mr. Cookie puttsing around the 413 in this classy "automobile". (btw, it does have rims?!?!)
4. I am still mourning over DUKE
5. I picked up my bridesmaid dress and thank the dear lord it fits(i didn't gain any wait, pheeeeew). You all can look forward to some photos of my 5 day binge in the VI soon enough...
6. I've become super melodramatic as a result of too much bright eyes and death cab...thanks seth cohen...
7. I'm sooooooooo addicted to Power Girls. Is is just me or does Lizzie Grubman have a slight resemblance to skeletor?
8. Kate Lucas will be my date for my brother's wedding. Seriously, you'd think I could find a fricken date to the virgin islands but NOOOO, I'll just look like the lesbian sister. Goooo First Impressions!!!
9. I have spring fever like you wouldn't believe. I can't wait for drinks on decks, baseball games, hikes, fresh lilacs, windows down, tshirts and skirts, flip flops, garden veggies, delicious fruity beverages, beach trips...
10. I assisted with a suicide intervention...FOR A 5TH GRADER...Just the thought of it makes me physically ill, times have changed I guess...
11. I've decided that I am in love with teachers...Seriously, I have a crush on about 10 teachers in my school district...Conflict of interest, NOOO WAY!!!!
12. My Babci(she is 85) is still living it up and reading Star(yes, that trashy publication that we can't keep our eyes off while waiting in the grocery line). I'm still trying to build up the bravada to be like "So, babci, do you think brad and Jen broke up bc he wanted kids?" or "So, do you think JLO and Marc are gonna beat the odds..." Seriously though, does my babci know who anyone in that magazine is???? God do I LOVE that lady...

Well thats all I can think of for now. But I vow to update at least once or twice this week. Or at least that is my plan...
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Mar. 23rd, 2005 @ 10:23 pm What a Dreamboat...
Current Mood: nostalgic
Current Music: "Lets Stay Together" Al Green
I watched Finding Neverland last nite and I have fallen back in love with Johnny Depp as I did many years ago with Edward Scissorshands and What's Eating Gilbert Grape...

I also cried about 4 times but that is besides the point...
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Mar. 21st, 2005 @ 10:43 pm How about week off to recover from my weekend??
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: "Brandy" Looking Glass
So this weekend may have been my favorite weekend of the new year. From Thursday to Sunday I had the opportunity to spend numerous hours with the friends I love most. I can say with full confidence that I have now expereinced the 413 at its optimum level(if thats possible). I could write ten pages about it all but I'll stick to the regular highlights/recap as it is the least time consuming for myself and my regular readers:
-Witnessing some hot lunch treats sans Buggy.
-Katie and I realizing our true love affiar with Guiness.
-Julie Margaret walking into a car meter. Watch out Julie, those guys can sneak up on you.
-Bonding with the 508/978 crew over sinfully delicious burritos from Bueno y Sano.
-Receiving a voicemail from dearest Bobbie. I dont know about you guys, but I think its pretty flipping cool to be getting voicemails from the 60 plus population.
-Hanging out at the Polish American Club on St. Patty's weekend?!?!(again with the 60 plus population)
-Having PTSD as I was driving through Holyoke Saturday afternoon amongst the road race/pre parade chaos
-Bag, Julie, Kate and I being very "discrete" about a problem
-Spending 72 hours at the mall, LITERALLY!!!
-Blantantly talking about Holyoke treats such as "Garbage Pail Kid" and "Grand Slam(pronounced with a horrific lisp)"
-Kate announcing that she chose Wisconsin in her NCAA pool bc "she likes cheese." Sadly, this tactic will likely lead to a big pay out for her.
-Missing yet another memo. Apparently flannel shirts and hair picks are the accessory of choice.
-Kate and I being hit on by every filthy man in Sporty's. "Somebody turn down the heat bc its hot in here!"
-Delicious 1$ drafts at Sporty's. We are easy to please!
-Leaving a ridiculous drunk dial to Scote at 11:31 AM, or Goat as Debbie refers to him.
-Repellent is all I can possibly say
-Running into my manager at the parade, after numerous rounds of flip cup and up the river, down the river(clearly not a good thing)
-Giving buggy the third degree over her disapproval of asians celebrating st patty's(hellllo buggy I'm not Irish and I bet Tokyo isn't either).
-Goobie winning the award for most accessorized St Patty's celebrant. The bow tie, "broach" and sunglasses were quite the winnig trio.
-Listening to Turi and Nick's heated discussion over Miami Vice and Police Academy. Clearly very important topics.
-Following through on that play date for lil cookie, funshine, Jacqueline and friends. Unfortunately, I feel as though DSS may be involved after what those poor children experienced.
-Devouring Mama Cook's pizza dip in 2.5 minutes.
-Party participants yelling "Ohhhhh Baby's Mama" while she is outside not realizing the window is open. Ooooops!
-Clifford puttsing around with his clifford the big red dog ballon. There is something mighty entertaining about a 22 year old boy holding a character balloon half his size.


In conclusion this was a fabulous weekend. A HUGE Thank you to Bag and Julie Margaret for coming out to the 413. I had such a blast and cannot wait to see your faces again. I cannot wait to start planning for all of this next year!
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Mar. 19th, 2005 @ 09:01 am How's My Hair?
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: "Corduroy" Pearl Jam
A woman with a hair pick in the back pocket of her Chic jeans does not mess around...
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Mar. 14th, 2005 @ 10:34 pm I have the best friends ever...
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: "The Past and Pending" The Shins
So I have the best friends in the world. While at work yesterday I had a surprise visit from Katie Kate and Goobie. I was quite happy to see them bc I really didn't want to be at work(isn't that unusual?). In usual fashion, we chuckled at the fabulous fashions in the juniors department. They kept commenting on a pair of jeans, however, I failed to catch on. This is likely due to my general lack of sleep. Anyhow I finally look down on the ground and discover a build a bear box. I start getting nervous as I imagine some helpless child wandering the mall in search of his beloved build a bear. Then I realize the build a bear is for me! My dear friends built me a bear or actually a puppy!!! I have been obsessing over build a bear since its arrival at the mall but I felt it was slightly inappropriate to buy one for myself. Well now I have a pup coincidentally named Lil cookie. She is gorgeous! Here is a brief discription:
-She is wearing a girl scout uniform bc as some of you know I was a girl scout as a child and last year for halloween. Lil' cookie, however, earned, far more patches than I did. Clearly, she is more motivated than her new mother.
-Lil Cookie is wearing a fabulous pair of pink hightops, with a slight resemblance to chuck taylors(which i will always have a soft spot for).
-Lil cookie came equipped with a high tech cell phone and some sporty shades. Boy to Goobie and Katie Kate know how to accessorize.
So the biggest thank you in the world to my dear friends! I will surely be a good mother my new pup! Perhaps we can arrange a play date for Lil Cookie, Jacqueline Merril and funshine??
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Mar. 13th, 2005 @ 12:02 pm Stripper...I barely know her
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: "Gravity Rides Everything" Modest Mouse
One thing I have learned from this bachelorette party is that I am not fond of semi-nude men gyrating and thrusting on my lap...
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Mar. 9th, 2005 @ 09:44 pm I Heart March...
Current Mood: devious
Current Music: "Pomp & Pride" Toots & The Maytals
As I was frantically running through the mall this afternoon I started thinking about the month of march. Besides the wretched weather, March is actually a fabulous month. Obviously it is difficult to topp such months as july and december but March does in fact hold its own. This gem of a month has a its own unique appeal. I have compiled a list of reasons why I have such an intense love affair with dear march:
1. St Patty's Day. This is an obvious choice. I'm not Irish but god do I love beer.
2. People watching at the Parade. I can only think of one other event that has the extreme people watching/new treat potential of the parade and that is BigE.
3. Spring Break. As much as I love dear AIC a week break from classes is much needed.
4. The array of Chocolate and/or Mint flavored products. Creamy Irish coffee at Honey Dew. Dublin Mudslide Ben & Jerry's(its back!). Chocolate Mint latte'e at Strabucks. Thin Mints.
5. It is almost expected that you wear green this month. I cannot think of any other color I would rather wear more. If it was acceptable to wear green on green I would like to be the poster child.
6. Girl Scout Cookie's. I sho am a sucker for those Caramel DeLights. Thank God For Girl Scouts.
7. Spring is just around the corner. This will likely lead to an increase in going out, leading to more trouble, leading to more journal entries. Everyone is Happy.
8. The widespread availability of products with witty lines such as "Kiss me I'm irish," "Irish Whiskey makes me Frisky," or my personal favorite "I Heart Beer".
9. Finally, the fact that it is totally acceptable and almost expected that you start drinking St Patty's Day and don't stop until Sunday nite.
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Mar. 9th, 2005 @ 10:27 am Hail Mary...
Current Mood: silly
Current Music: "Love and Some Verses" Iron & Wine
Pray for Bill Clinton...
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Mar. 6th, 2005 @ 09:46 pm A light at the end of the tunnel/I brake for Jerry's kids...
Current Mood: good
Current Music: "American Girl" Tom Petty
The bridal shower, which my mother and I have been orchestrating for some time, is now another completed page in the life of cookie/bopper. The event went smoothly, a word rarely combined in a sentence involving myself. I didn't gneish, I didn't trip over a stair, I didn't make any faulty introductions, and I didn't make any catty comments. Overall, it was a successful morning and gawd did I look fabulous (jk). Hopefully this will lead to a swift halt in my mother's perma-PMS.

The more I think about the effort involved in wedding planning, the stronger my aversion to idea of getting married. When and if I ever settle down, I will surely be eloping. But no worries, you are all welcome to join the psuedo-celebration. Do I smell a reception at the elks?

In our continued efforts to explore and discover the 413, a favorite hangout was established, namely the tunnel bar. We often chat of venturing over to this quasi unafmilar territory(as I have been before) and finally gained the bravada to follow through. Katie Kate and I explored on friday nite. We fit right in as the group of young uns next to us were philosophizing over AIM and the sheer brillance of the profile. We continually commented, "Goobie would LOVE this," "Too bad Goobie wasn't here." Well the next nite Goobie did expereince the tunnel bar, unfortunately there were no randoms discussing the AIM. She also experienced the Hoodsie cup martini which sounds delightful but pales in comparison to the real thing.

Around 1230 we started getting restless, which is generally the case. What would be the most reasonable relocation? Clearly Elizur's as we need some mischeif in our lives. Well for once our mischeif was proactive or at least good clean fun. While ordereing a drink I notice these fabulous shmarocks hanging on the wall amongst the bottles of Hennesy and Grand Marnier. One little shamrock grew on me like the runt of the litter. This little guy had "Pooter" printed on him which I found quite classy. Well the wheels started turning and soon enough a shamrock with "413 project" was up on that wall. Two beers later and 7$ later, 7 additional shamrocks were up on that wall. If nothing else, I can go to bed at nite knowing that the 413 project donated 8$ to Jerry's kids. We do it all for the kids!!
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